i borrowed this from the library a while back and have been super stoked on it.



especially this song, sung here by cameron diaz. i can't help but think of this horribly embarassing/awesome scene( in one of the only romantic comedies where the leading actress doesn't get the man) whenever i hear this song.

ps - tracey, see new comment posted on your karaoke vid entry.

 
DEAR TRACEY,

GHOSTWRITER! ON YOUTUBE! WOW!  (this is also the link i use to watch some tv)

I WONDER IF WE'D STILL FIND ROB ATTRACTIVE!

AND YES, THAT IS SAMUEL L. JACKSON IN THE FIRST EPISODE.

 
number 1 : Yesterday I went to a mall dentist and asked if they knew of any low income dentists in the area because I don't have any coverage and because I read on the internet that every city has at least one.
The receptionist said " well, every second tuesday if you go down to the Native Friendship Center, a dentist comes by and he will pull out teeth for free."

Okay. the native friendship center is downtown pg - which means 8/10 times it's something sketchy. also every time we walk by there, there are drunk people fighting (doesn't matter what time of day) and blood and/or puke on the sidewalks.... we decided to pay for proper treatment.



number 2: today after my x-ray, i went to taco time while waiting for my antibiotics to be ready and I asked for a 7 layer burrito. I said "just to make sure, there is no meat on that, right?" and then the girl who kept coughing said " Yeah it's beans. I don't like beans" and the girl who took my order/made my burrito said " yeah. i haven't really tried beans. I don't think I'd like them. ........... But that's probably because I know how they are made..... so that will be $5.44"

GAAAAH!

 


okay so the reason i called my last post 'life' was because yeah my wisdom tooth is poking out and i'm teething but the REAL kicker(s) in this situation is that marc and i had a chance to get me health insurance through his school but it would have cost $400 and since i never have to go to the doctor for anything... we of course decided we couldn't afford it and left it. ....... now how much will this cost us? a lot.
ALSO.. i have been doing dick all for sooo long and now less than a week before i start school (where my attendance is monitered for ei purposes) i have this happen... awwwwwwesome. hopefully i can get it dealt with on a weekend and not have to miss a day or several during my first couple weeks.
effffff.

 
life.



i have been in a lot of pain today cuz my wisdom tooth - while hurting me for a few years, a day or two at at time - has finally begun to poke it's ugly head out from behind my molars. i'm teething. and i don't like it. it's weird that it wasn't a problem yesterday and then today 1/2 of my mouth is in agony and 1/2 of my teeth feel like they've already moved.

unfooooortch i don't have any medical and so i dont know how we're gunna pay for xrays and to get this sucker removed. i guess i have to actually go to a dentist asap... which i haven't done in a few years....because of not having medical... uuuughhhh

on a positive note, i love the taste/feeling of orajel. haha.

i really wanted to get this one for myself

 
i made these for the window. i made a couple strings of different sized ones. and some ghosties too.

i wish i had halloween plans.

 
so.. i'm a giant nerd who looooves puppies. and i go here daily. the daily puppy.

anyways... the other day i came across this little lady, Gabby and I saved this picture as my wallpaper and now everytime I close my browser and I see her little face I melt. totally and completely. So I am sharing her. Because I loved my dachsund VERY much but I can honestly say she was never as cute at this picture of Gabby. 

because i can relate to her soo much about almost everything.
here's another SPOT ON example.

 
eatin' these



watchin' this



waitin' for this

 
today at church there was a kid with a toy gun. at church. and he was a nightmare. his mom kept hugging and holding him and he'd have the gun in his little hand and it would be pointing at us and old people all around him. then he put it in his mouth. 


his slightly older brother let out a 'quit it. you're annoying me, kyle' during a quiet part and he sounded exactly like Ike which is awesome his his brother's name is Kyle.



anyways. i barely got any sleep. when i did i had a nightmare about some crazy man with pointy needle hands who captured a bunch of people and made me pick which one of my parents i wanted to save while the other had to die. i woke up before i had to choose -which is good cuz i wouldn't want to carry around the knowledge of who i'd picked.

so now.. i nap.
so stoked for the dinner we are making tonight.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
pumpkin stuff!

sorry livejournal. i have totally, fully neglected you and now it's gunna be hard to make a 'catch up' entry so i probably won't really. maybe just a few pictures of a few things.

i am about to go 'downtown' (really means nothing here.. just a place forgotten with some stores) and finish the last of the thank yous and mail them off! fuck!
and then work on school stuff. ooh i have this one to finish and then i'm waiting for my final package with has 3 lessons/tests all about horses and then i am finished! sucks to be such a slacker but i'm totally gunna juuuuuust beat the deadline. PHEW!!

okay i have a bus to catch but here's a funny photo from the photo shoot we did for our thankyous. i wanted marc to present me with dinner and then i was just gunna look pretty.. only... it just looks like we're in 2 different photos. but i looked pretty haha.

 

THE SECOND GREATEST EVENT OF MY CRAZY SUMMER?!?!?

WE SAW THESE GUYS:



AND THIS HAPPENED:



AND RIGHT AFTER THEY PLAYED ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS.

AND THESE 2 GUYS WERE HILAAAAAARIOUS, AS ALWAYS:



AND IF I WASN'T MARRIED TO MARCUS.. AND IF I WAS SINGLE.. I WOULD STALK THIS MAN.. BECAUSE HE'S MY FAVORITE TWITTERER AND I WOULD WANT TO AT LEAST BE HIS FRIEND IN REAL LIFE:



AND THAT WAS HIM AT THE VANCOUVER AQUARIUM! HMPH!


well, Linnea's wedding.. you have a lot to live up to if YOU want to be my 2nd favorite event of this summer! haaha jjjjjjk.

no, but seriously.

 
how i looked in these jean shorts summer 2008



VS. how i look in these jeans shorts summer 2009! hahahahahah awesome.

 


PLAYLAND would be pretty fun place to start a Bachelorette party... 
iiiif it didn't cost so much to get in... and i guess it would make everyone stinky and dirty looking before going out elsewhere. so it would have to be a 2 part bachelorette party. and then only like, 2 people would show up to Playland because it costs money and everyone backs out on Playland (except Tracey :) )

and last time i went on rides there i was terrified - like i used to be when i was young. totally afraid of things falling off tracks and screws coming loose .. basically my mind could write a Final Destination movie, no problem. Maybe that's why i couldn't handle that movie - too real in my mind! (speaking of which there is a NEW 3-D final destination coming out! NEIN DANKE!!!) - but last time WAS fright nights... so maybe i was just overall FREAKED OUT! i'm a jumpy goose!

ANYWAYS.. i might not even have a bachelorette party.. not a lot of time.. but as long as i dress up kinda nice and get to wear the 'bride' pin from the martha bridal party set chrissy bought me.. i'll be okay.... afterall this isn't really my style!

I went to visit Marc a few days ago - just for 2 days, 1 night (that's enough of trailer life for me!). Vanderhoof was actually really cute. I liked visiting. 

the first day we went to a cafe/laundromat/car wash that was really cute. i wanted to take pictures of everything.. napkin holders.. pictures on the wall... table cloths.. very cute.

then we went out for a nice dinner - both times we were with a guy that marc is working along side.. kiiiinda funny since we hadn't seen each other in a month and then the 2 times we go out for food we are with some guy. but he was really really nice and he lives in Tofino and will be there when we're on our honeymoon (but hopefully he wont be joining us for all our meals there.... cuz...... honeymoon! - but he is going to hook us up with cheap kayak lessons! adventures!) 

It hadn't rained in Vanderhoof in forever but of course chose the 2 days I was there to pour. When it stopped for a bit Marc grabbed an axe and some firewood but then it rained again at night so we couldn't have a fire. 

Marc's sturgeon project is really interesting. The amount of work he put into the set up alone is CRAZY. ... really crazy... I'm so proud of how hard he works.. it's intense. He got up every 2 hours during the night to check on his sturgeon and set-up. That's why I was glad I was only there for 1 night... no sleep for me. 

Anyways... here are some pictures from Vanderhoof...


headlamp - for late night bathroom runs



oh yeah and marc has lots of hair! curly, curly hair!!

i've said it before and i'll say it again - I LOVE POSITIVE GRAFFITI!!

 
1) My spending habits. I have a budget set up but I am still drawn to shopping and can talk myself into anything (affordable. It's always used or super cheap new stuff). I have such a habit of collecting mugs and little ornaments that of course I don't NEED... but I WANT. I'd like to be able to save up so I can actually DO stuff! Visit Linnea and save up for Dobler!

2) My body image. I "follow" Lindsey Lohan on twitter.. I don't remember why... I think it's cuz some other celebrity I was following kept sending her messages and I wanted to know what she was saying... stupid... ANYWAYS she was laughing because someone posted a video on youtube about how skinny she is and how unhealthy she looks and I watched it and the whole time I was thinking "I wish I looked that good in tights" and "I wish my arms could look like that". The whole point of the video was to show how unhealthy it is to have her lifestyle and I just wanted to look like that! And the worst thing is, I have lost a healthy amount of weight while living up here. And I feel like I can maybe even keep it this way. I didn't "diet", it is more of a lifestyle change.  I was able to do the Jenny Craig picture - I pulled the waist of my old jean shorts from last summer out and there was tons of room there. It was a proud moment and I haven't even been trying THAT hard. I still enjoy bad food (on occasion) and I don't exercise a ton but on the whole i'm eating WAAAAAY healthier than I ever did in Vancouver. I am still a vegetarian but I am eating tons of protein and tons of fruits and veggies and I'm really loving everything I'm eating and I feel healthy inside... but why can't I feel good on the outside?! The other day Marc said I should get a bikini and I looked at him like he just said he killed someone. He thinks I'm crazy but I am pretty sure no one wants to see my and my pasty tummy in a 2 piece. Actually, I tried one on yesterday in Superstore and I loved the bikini.. but not on me. All I could see was tummy fat and white skin.

side bar - That trying on of the bikini ALMOST lead to my first shoplifting experience. Accidental shoplifting experience. I put my pants on and tied up my shoes and wondered why there was an extra hanger on the door... oh... right...... off with the sneakers.. off with the jeans... ah.. there's the little blue & white stripped bugger! I would have felt TERRIBLE!

ANYWAYS... I really hope that one day I can mature and just be okay with myself. Sure I wish my skin was milky or tan and I wasn't blue tinted with red dots and tons of freckles/moles.... and sure my thighs will always touch at the top from years of dancing and muscle building... and sure my calves look like i'm a pro baseball player... and sure my stomach will always hold the most fat of all my body making me look a little pregnant in comparison... but that's me. And Marcus likes me... so why can't I?

 

this.... is real?!


well... there weren't any sparklers.... but it's PRETTY good.
 

OOPS. TONIGHT I TOTALLY EMOTIONAL ATE AND DRANK FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE BEING UP HERE. (actually... that's totally okay.. i am not upset with myself.. i've done pretty good for myself... a slip here and there is nothing to worry about. plus.. i only had a couple drinks. and considering how much i emotionally ate in Vancouver... this is pretty okay by me)

tonight i had:

a bag of these:


and a bag of these:


and some of this (which HAD been in the fridge since January... ahha.. shows how much we drink)
 



I WOULDN'T FEEL THAT BAD EXCEPT I WENT HERE FOR LUNCH:



and had the guacamole burger (but with a veggie patty)



soooo that's pretty nasty.

oh well.. i can make up for it all tomorrow and the next day etc.

WOOF.

and i watched a few episodes of this:



... it's pretty sexy... and serious.... and fucked up. but .. the vampire sitch isn't that weird.. it's all the humans... and their sex. i dont know.. i am kind of watching it to find out the true identity of the dog... some random dog has really caught my attention. it makes sense. i guess i'm gunna go watch a few more episodes now... and then something silly like animaniacs so i can sleep and not be creeped out.

ugh.

**side note. it's funny how captain morgans reminds me of one person in particular. a boy i once sort of dated but not really. we really just watched movies and cuddled. and then he went back to his ex girlfriend for awhile. he was awesome.. still is, i guess. not that i talk to him. but not that i have anything against talking to him. i would. i just dont. ANYWAYS. captain's reminds me of him. and i'm okay with that. i remember sitting on the stairs at some house party - and then i think the stairs collapsed...NO FAT JOKES! there was a lot of people on them! anyways... that was where i had my first sip of the capt. and you might know who i'm talking about. esp you, tracey... this journal is far from private because i dont care but i'm still not gunna use names. ha.

 
the fact that i didn't open the bottle of captain morgan's or rip into the big bag of maltesers in my cupboard must say something about my strength... because i feel emotionally drained and ... well.. just crappy and in need of something big.

but i've stewed in my thoughts all day and tomorrow i make some phone calls and really deal with things. and hopefully at the end of that feel better and not worse.
if worse... well there won't be any maltesers left, i'll just say that.